Loss of doss.

Its been 4 months since i was told by V that she is ready to move onto the next chapter of her life, it was a natural progression considering the chain of events that has just ensued - her engagement was done, then it was the hullabaloo about designing her invites, buying jewelery, saris etc, that done, next came the need to rewrite and redo her resume to apply for a job as a planner in a new country, that i am told went about like a knife through butter, and whats left now is just the marriage and the eventual moving. She is confirmed to move to Singapore where destiny has already scrawled her name on the rolls.

All along i have been party to this celebratory phase in her life and have at several moments felt jealous for the way things were working out for her. No offence, but some people are built like that, (eg: Savi, Archana, Sumant, and now V) These are the superstars i have been watching from the sidelines. All you need to do is, just pull a chair and sit to watch them as their life moves from one big milestone to another, barely missing a beat. And strangely for some people like me, who prefer to remain seated, life throws jigsaw puzzle after jigsaw puzzle, the solving of which is the only way i can inch ahead. And just when i think its heading in the direction i want, a strange thing happens, either i have to give up the chase thanks to some wild card ruling, or lose it in a twisted toss up with something even more valuable. I am destined to be a straggler in this lifetime i suppose. How else could one explain, IIT Powai, the violin incidents, the option of being a programmer for the rest of my life, the love for advertising, heartbreaks, long expanses of non holiday work, twisted thyroids, travel to work, travel back from work, dyspepsia, lifelessness,....!!!

I have been approached by good people offering me a chance to improve my life condition, my career and to get a move on. But i am in a quandary as usual. The place i work just became fabulous suddenly making staying back a very plausible option. However in the event of me staying back here, i would lose my brand new opportunity and also the career "calm" i have been enjoying. If i leave i will have joy, money, and 6 months of impression building on my to-do list...So here i am, again at wits end.

I wish this were easier..

This blog was about V, and not me. So here's wishing this crazy chick a happy and joyous married life and career in an all new place. Lots of love and wishes.


Meanwhile I pull a chair, sit and watch as V boards her plane. I smile and wave.